Epilogue: 2010

I had never felt time pass so fast before. Looking back at the ups and downs I had this year, I feel that I have grown up a lot. I still can't believe that tomorrow will be the last day of 2010. Despite of the fact that I am looking forward for a fresh start, part of me is reluctant to let 2010 to become just a memory.

In January, I got in to Methodist College Kuala Lumpur. Experienced culture shock. That was definitely not an easy month for me. However, I managed to make a lot of friends and they play a very big part in my college life.

Deltians

In February, attended the first ever ball night in my life. Got nominated as Freshie Queen. :D


In March, Kids Carnival. Haha. I remember I lost my voice that day and felt so grumpy. I snapped at anybody who came near me. :P Performed on the Treasure Hunt day. That was the one and only performance I got to do with the cheer team. :(

Treasure Hunt

In April, nothing much happened.

In May, went to Bukit Broga and meet a bunch of new friends from Uniten. Some of those friends became my karaoke kakis. They are a bunch of crazy and fun people, haha. Had my first Edexcel Examinations.


In June, went on a family vacation to Sabah. Went karaoke with Xue Jen and Natasha.


In July, donated blood for the first time. Don't ask me whether it was painful. Anyone with half a brain should know it hurts! Got together with a someone. Got into the Student Council. :) I really want to thank the lecturer who nominated me and the people who encouraged me to go for it, I found myself and what I want to do in Student Council. And the people in Student Council are reallyyyy nice people too. I won't get to know them if I hadn't join Student Council.

McRave

In August, went to the July intake's Orientation Camp as a facilitator. Had bunch of fun with the other facilitators. I still remember the karaoke session we had on the way back! It was hilarious! Haha.. Ding dong ding dong~xP

The other facilitators

In September, my boyfriend had to go oversea to study, so we broke up. Oh well, I believe everything happens for the best. He did not just come into my life as a boyfriend, he also inspired me in a lot of ways. I can't tell you exactly how he did it, he just did. Oh, and I had an AWESOME birthday! :P

My birthday celebration with my friends

A little surprise party my friends from the Student

Council threw me. Thank you guys soooo much!

In October.. Can't remember what happened. But it certainly wasn't an easy month after the breakup.

In November, last month of my second semester of my course. Felt like stopping time. Had some night outs of my girl friends.


In December, attended Toastmaster Leadership Programme. Made lots of new friends and had a very memorable time with them. Wai Lok had to leave to Australia. :(

A picture with Wai Lok

Toastmaster Leadership Programme

One more day, then we are in a whole new year, a new year full with promise and prospect. I will finish my A Level in MCKL and will enter university. It is a very important year for me and I wish everything will turn out well.

I wish everyone here a happy new year. May your new year full with joy and love. <3

Fix ya crap, Twitter!

Sometimes, when I send a tweet, Twitter tells me that they did something wrong and wants me to send my tweet again in A MINUTE. I try to refresh my page and send my tweet again, it tells me the same thing. After refreshing the page 10,000 times, it still tells me the same thing.

When I don't have problem sending my tweets, this Twitter API thing keeps popping up asking for my user name and password. Clicking OK won't do any good, it will still pop out few minutes later. This is really getting on my nerves.

Apparently I am not the only one having this problem. Anybody here facing the same problem as me in Twitter? I am switching back to the old version for now. Twitter had better fix it before all of us have to migrate to the new version. :(

Fullstop.

No relationship is ever a failure if you manage to learn something about yourself.
Just because it didn't work out doesn't mean it wasn't a necessary part of
your journey to becoming who you're meant to be.

2010 Christmas: YMCA street feeding+Gulliver's Travels

It was Christmas and I went YMCA to do some street feeding, spread some love. :) I hadn't seen so many people there before, but it was full house yesterday. Some of the blinds even had to sit outside the shade. Fortunately it wasn't very hot that day as it is the rainy season now. All the food was finished and everybody got a goodie bag before they left.

I could feel all the love and blessings in the air, and the happiness of giving. I have to say that this was by far the most meaningful Christmas I have ever had.

At night, I went to watch Gulliver's Travels with my family. It had been a long time since I last caught a movie. The movie was okay, not as funny as I thought it would be though. Grown Ups was better. :)

After that, we went to a mamak stall to chill. I did not enjoy myself there at all! The mosquitoes there loved me, and I am sure they had a very merry Christmas for sucking blood from my legs.

The Dusun

Vampire attack!

My family goes on a vacation pretty much every time my dad comes back from India. This holiday, we went to The Dusun, which is located near Seremban. It was a memorable one. :)


Day 1: Steamboat dinner

It was already evening when we arrived there. Went to the pool with my siblings for a while. After we came back from the swimming pool, we had steamboat dinner in our 'house' and went up to sleep. I was tired and fell asleep quickly with a firefly flickering around in my room. How beautiful! :)

Day 2: Jungle trekking, waterfall, small talks on the deck in front of the sunset, barbecue dinner.

Early in the morning, after our breakfast, we went into the jungle with an orang asli as our guide. I have always been a person who loves to be close to the nature, so I really had fun. And I got my first ever leech bite near my waist. Had some on my legs too, but those were kinda small. Unlike me, my sis hates the jungle, she was disgusted my the soil, annoyed by the leaves, horrified by the leeches. Haha! It was amusing to see her shriek when she found a giant leech in her shoe.


Spent some time at the waterfall before we headed back for lunch. Took a nap. In the evening, my family and I sat on the deck and had some small talks. Took a lot of pictures but none of them have me inside because I was the camera person. :(

Those sexy legs at the corner of the picture are mine. :)

Soon after the sun set, we had barbecue dinner. This is my favorite time of the vacation because I got to show off some of the skills I acquired from all the camps I have been to. We didn't have fire starter, so I started the fire with cotton and cooking oil. Smart heh? :P

My sis didn't know there was a moth on her shirt when I took this picture. Omg, you should see how she screamed when she saw it. Haha..

On the last day, day 3, we just had our breakfast and checked out from our 'house' in the afternoon. Oh, mind you, it was not a resort or whatsoever, it is a house owned by a couple from New Zealand. I dream to own a house like this too, but not in the forest, but by the beach. :) I am now finally home. Tired from the car ride. It is Christmas tomorrow, I already have my plans, how about you?

My new love.

I am here to rave about my new laptop! :D I know a lot of you already have your own laptop since long time ago, but let me rave la kay? I am just happy that I finally got mine! :)


I got my new laptop yesterday and now I don't have to share the family computer with my siblings. So I think I will be able to blog more often, if I want to, and have more privacy when I chat to my friends online without my family walking around in the background. I can do my research more efficiently because my laptop is faster then my family computer, and I can do it in my room alone, quietly. I can be online until late night and no one will care. I have so much more freedom.

I am having some problem with my laptop though. I feel so ancient using the latest Window. Everything seems too advanced for me. But I am kind of a fast learner, not a big problem, haha! And... The webcam is working, but it doesn't have a software to run it offline. I can use it for video chatting, but not to take picture. And.. My uncle installed some software for me, IN CHINESE VERSION!! The mandarin section in my brain is like closed for so long and is rusted already. I have to squint my eyes and try to pronounce the words before processing them in my brain to understand what the sentence means. Luckily they are not important software though, so it doesn't matter that much.

Marry-Merry

I feel as if I have wasted another day for not studying for the exam. I went to shop for a dress for next year's Orientation Ball night. My mom told me there is a boutique called Marry-Merry in SS2 that has really nice dresses, so I went there with my aunt today.

And got my OB dress! :D

At first I wanted a short one because, though long ones are elegant, I think it's easier to dance in a short dress. So I tried on a few dresses and this was the one I liked most among all the short ones I tried on.


However, there was something wrong with this dress. It's still tooo big for me even the size was only S. So I tried on some long ones.

I like this design but not the colour. :(

After 1 and a half hours in the shop, I finally decided the dress to bring home. :) Even the makeup I am gonna do for that night! :D


Haha.. I am not gonna tell you how it looks like right now right here, keep you all in suspence. You will know when I blog about the night. By the way, OB night is in February. Few more months to go. :)

The dresses in Marry-Merry are really affordable. Well, of course you can't compare them with Time Square's dresses. You can easily get a dress for RM25 there. They are different in the sense of quality. :) I heard from someone Time Square's dresses, though some of them are quite nice, they are DISPOSABLE!

Feel free to visit Marry-Merry's blog: http://marry-merry.blogspot.com/

By the way, I am going to the education fair tomorrow in Mid Valley. And will maybe get to shop again. Keke.. So anybody going as well tomorrow? :)

Haul!! :P

It was the last day of J Card Members Day today in Mid Valley. I went there with my parents. At first I was stuck with my mom. I don't really enjoy shopping with her because she likes to go to places like Metrojaya and Jusco.. Ugh, I don't like. But I had to follow her because I had no money to shop alone. :( After a while, my dad stuffed some cash into my hand and ask me to go and enjoy myself. Hah! My dad loves me. x) So here are some stuff I got.

Vincci Heels (Brown)

Normal price: RM99.00
After discount: RM49.50

Vincci Heels (Beige)
Normal price: RM79.00
After discount: RM39.50

I like this pair of heels a lot. :)

P&Co T-Shirt
Normal price: RM49.00
After discount: RM19.60

Voir Jeans (Short)
Normal price: RM79.90
After discount: RM39.95

I thought the T-shirt was cute when I saw it, but now I don't really like it.
The rabbit looks so scary. :(

But the pair of jeans is really a hit! It is very COMFY and
not expensive at all. :)

The Face Shop Stick Eye Shadow (White)
Normal price: RM29.90
After discount: RM14.95

This is something I have been waiting to get. Finally I got it. :P

I didn't have much time to shop because when I got to shop alone it was already quite late. I was walking like damn fasttttt so that I could get as many stuff as I could. These are not all though, bought some stuff that are too personal to show. Haha.. Boy, shopping makes me so happy. Plus the sales and the christmas atmosphere, it's such an enjoyable thing to do!!



Conclusion: My favorite season, YEAR END SALES SEASON! :)

Don't Give Up

Has anyone of you tried fighting for something you want so much in your life but ended up falling so hard onto the ground, flat on your face, and felt like that was the end of the world?

I had a granduncle who spent his last few months of his life in the intensive care unit in the hospital, depending on a machine to help him breathe. The doctor told us there was nothing much he could and to be ready for the day. Every time he lost his consciousness, we never expected him to ever wake up again. But every time we thought it was about time to let him go, he would gain back his consciousness and started talking to us again the next day. At last, he passed away, in peace. Back then, I was still a kid. But I could already tell that my granduncle had fought hard for his life, he did not give up until his very last breathe.

I have an aunt who had cancer. One day, she came to me and told me that the pain was so excruciating, it was too painful to bear and she did not want to live anymore. She wanted to kill herself. I hugged her and said 'Hang in there aunty. The doctors have not given up on you. We, as your family have not given up on you. Why should you give up on yourself?' Every day after I came back from my school, I stayed by her side to keep her company, just so that she would not... Kill herself.

At some point of life, you may be disheartened by a lot of things. One day you are at the top of the world. The next day, someone else is already better than you, and you start to think that maybe you are not as good as you thought and you lose all your willpower to move on. People, life, is like a marathon. When someone overtook you, it does not mean that at the end of the race you won't be the champion! Just keep running, if not you will never reach the end.

At some point of life, you may feel like you have done all the things you could to reach your dream. You have tried your very best to impress your boss, to score an A in Science, to put your family together, but nothing seems to fall into place. Everything seems so tough and you want to give up. People, life is like riding a bicycle. You won't fall unless you stop peddling.

At some point of life, you may think you have done enough. When people ask you to give it another push, you say 'that little bit more of effort will not help much, I have tried so hard!' So you think that little bit more effort won't help? Sometimes, that little bit extra effort you put into whatever you are doing can make a difference. Sometimes, that little bit extra effort can make all the difference. The difference between ordinary and extraordinary is that little bit of extra.

We all know water boils at 100°C. So what happens at 99°C? The water is one degree away from boiling. How about at 1°C? The water is just one degree away from freezing. Will the water freeze at 1°C? Never. So does the little extra effort count?

Thomas Edison once said, many people do not know how close they were from success when they gave up. Tough times toughen us. Things that don't kill us make us stronger. Challenges are here to make our lives better, not bitter.

Remember the aunt I mentioned just now? She has survived cancer. How wasted it would be if she killed herself back then. So my friends, no matter what you are fighting for now, do not give up, because you'd never know if you are just one step, or even one degree away from success. Good luck.

A bit. Too fast?

How did it get so late so soon?
It's night before it's afternoon.
December is here before it's June.
My goodness how the time has flown.
How did it get so late so soon?

Pay Less Books

Pay Less Books is back again in YMCA!!

Date: 19-20 November 2010

Time: 9.00am-9.00pm

Don't miss your chance to grab some cheap and cheerful secondhand books

for LESS THAN HALF THEIR ORIGINAL PRICES!!

If you miss your chance this time you would need to wait until

17 December 2010

And Pay Less Books will be back in 3K Inn.

So many books for only RM60!

If you were to buy them for their original prices, I am sure they would easily cost you RM300! Secondhand books are really not that bad. It's the content that counts after all.

I am not a smart shopper and tend to rush into decision and go home with things I regret buying. While I was on the way home on the bus with 11 books in my hands, I started to feel silly for buying so many books. I came home and looked for reviews of the books I bought, and thank god their reviews are not bad.

These are gonna keep me occupied for a while. Guess I won't need to hit the bookstore again anytime soon. :)

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Beauty is short-lived.

Just a random one. I can't draw very well, especially portriat. I did this video at 1.30am because I can't sleep. So, have fun! :)

I don't own the music.

The disappeared little devil

Our favorite game Tug-of-War

419 days without you.

Updatess

Dear readers,

I know it has been a long long time since I updated you all. A lot have happened in the past few months. And sometimes, I just prefer things to be kept to myself. That's why I didn't not post it up here.

After going through all the ups and downs, I have learned a lot of things that I wouldn't have understood before this. We learn from our mistakes, we learn when we fall, we learn when it hurts. And after every heart break, we grow a little smarter, a little wiser, a little stronger.

I learned that everything happens for a reason. A bad thing prepares us for the worse, the worse prepares us for the worst.

I learned that there is no such thing at my-kind-of-guy/girl. You will never know how much you can love that person until give yourself a chance to love him or her.

I learned that there is no dream that is too big to be achieved. If you have a dream, reach out for it. Do not give in to pressure from peers or even your family. You yourself know what you want most in life.

I learned to be fearless (or at least try to act as though I'm not afraid of anything and try to overcome it). Things that don't kill you make you stronger. And always ask yourself when you're held back by fear, 'What would I do if I weren't afraid?'

I learned to take responsibility for my own action. Sometimes, there are people out there who love to care about things that are totally none of their business and it's annoying. I am grateful for the friendly advices that I get from the people who care about me. But when they start to interfere with my personal life, then that's too much. I am sorry if I offended anyone, but.. I take responsibility for my own action okay? :)

I realize that the people whom I care most care about me too, so I am gonna love them more. :)

Officially Missing You

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why’d you have to go

‘Cause this pain I feel it won’t go away

And today I’m officially missin’ you

I thought that from this heartache,

I could escape

But I’ve fronted long enough to know

There ain’t no way

And today I’m officially missing you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially...

All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears

Looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don’t even know you at all,

I don’t know you at all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now

So that I would get through to you somehow

But I guess it’s safe to say, baby, safe to say that

I-I’m officially missin’ you

Ooh...can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I-I’m officially missing you

:)

When things get a little out of hand, when the person you wish to see is far away, just take a break and look around. You will find small things around you that makes you smile. :)

An old married couple pull into a gas station, and the old man roles down his window.

Gas station attendant: "Can I help you?"

Old man: "Fill 'er up."

Old Woman: (asks the old man) "What'd he say?"

Old Man: "He asked if he could help us."

Old Woman: "Tell him to fill 'er up."

Old Man: "I told him to fill it up."

Gas station attendant: "Where are you two headed?"

Old Man: "We're going to Disneyland."

Old Woman: "What'd he say?"

Old man: "He asked us where we're headed."

Old Woman: "Tell him we're going to Disneyland."

Old Man: (disgustingly) "I told him we're going to Disneyland!"

Gas station attendant: "Where are you two from?"

Old Man: "We're from Hudsonville."

Old Woman: "What'd he say?"

Old Man: (angrily) "He asked us where we're from!"

Old Woman: "Tell him we're from Hudsonville."

Old Man: (very angry) "I TOLD HIM WE'RE FROM HUDSONVILLE!"

Gas station attendant: "Hudsonville, I've been to Hudsonville before. The women there are DOG UGLY!"

Old Woman: "What'd he say?"

Old Man: (looks at the old woman, then at the gas station attendant, and then back to the old woman and says) "He said he's met you before!"

5 things you have to do with your loved ones

1. Cuddle on a coach with some food in your hands (it could be chips, instant noodles, pop corns, etc) and watch a romantic movie together.

2. Sneak out in the middle of the night to a nearby park, lie down side-by-side on the basketball court and just enjoy his presence under the moonlight.

3. Make him piggyback you to his car when you need to go home from his place despite how tired he is.

4. Watch him smile when he sleeps and then give him a kiss on his cheek. Make sure he returns the kiss, if not just wake him up by giving him a hard bite on his shoulder.

5. Watch the sunset by the beach.

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Book review: Bed of Roses

One of the best past time to have during the holidays is to have a good romance in your hands accompanied by a cup of coffee (I prefer instant noodles though, coffee just makes the picture better). That's what I like to do especially when I'm on vacation, instead of waking up early and following and family for breakfast early in the morning, I prefer to have a sleep in in the hotel room, get up when I wanna get up, go out to the balcony, and start my day with something romantic..=) I picked this book up when I was on a vacation in Sabah. I was feeling really bored and needed a book to kill time.

This book is about a girl named Emma who worked as a florist in a wedding planning company Vows that was owned by one of her best friends. Emma was gorgeous and sexy, men swarmed around her, but she never found her Mr. Right. Jack Cooke was so close to the women of Vows (Emma and her best friends) that he's practically family. The last person Emma thought she'd fall in love with is Jack, because he was not the best guy to share love with. He was so close to them and things would just turn nasty if their relationship didn't work out, plus he was a player, always mingling around girls and never had a steady partner. Knowing that Jack was not her dream guy, yet Emma had fallen for him. At the end of the story, Jack found himself in love with Emma and they got married. Typical and so predictable huh? Yeah..

The reason I picked this book up was because I was attracted by its cover and title, it looks so romantic and I thought this would be another good romance. Though it's so predictable, I knew they were gonna get married, this book didn't not fail to keep me occupied when I was feeling hell bored in Sabah.

One thing I don't like about this book is it's so unrealistic! Emma had a PERFECT life, way tooooo perfect and I'm jealous. She was hot, had something she love doing as her job, worked with her best friends, had super loving parents, and at last got married with the man she really loved. I couldn't find anything not near to perfect about her in this book. People, life is NOT perfect!!



"Romance, in Emmaline opinion, made being a woman special. Romance made every woman beautiful, and every man a prince. A woman with romance in her life lived as grandly as a queen, because her heart was treasured."

"Flowers, candlelight, long walks in the moonlight in a secluded garden..."

"She wanted the day after day, night after night, year after year, the home, the family, the fights, the support, the sex, the everything.

He was one who wanted his own space, his own direction, who considered marriage a gamble with long odds."

"She knew all those things about him, and still she'd fallen."



Emma wanted forever, Jack enjoyed the present. Emma didn't dare to tell Jack that she loved him simply because she was afraid that Jack would freak out and leave her. But lucky for her, this man fell for her at the end of the story.

I think the way Emma thinks. If a relationship doesn't last forever, what's the point of even starting it? Get into a relationship then love that person with your heart, never give up easily in the relationship. But sometimes when you fall in love with someone like Jack, the only thing you can do is to enjoy the present and hope one day he will settle down with you. Good luck everyone.

With love.